I don't know why I get restless and decide to go blog-hopping. I have more than enough blogs on my sidebar to keep me busy and, when I'm baby sitting both of my young grandsons, I hardly have the time to keep up-to-date on visiting those. But here I sit, time on my hands today. I tried reading and I'm not in the mood. I'm still avoiding housework. So what do I do? I start 'surfing'.
And then I get discouraged.
"Why?!" you ask.
I'll tell you why. Because there are a lot of blogs out there much better than my 'paltry and boring' little site. There are great writers out there. And I begin to doubt my own writing ability. And I become unsure of myself. My self confidence gets shaken. And I am my own worst enemy, my harshest critic. I'm ready to shut it down!
I've been reading blogs lately where everyone seems to be worrying about 'blog block.' Or trying to decide if they should keep blogging. They worry about lack of traffic and are desperate to attract more. Ever since reading that if you're able to attract even one reader you're doing pretty good, considering the millions of blogs out there, I'm not too concerned about traffic. I'm a motor mouth and have absolutely nooooooooooooo problem with 'blog block'. I don't even suffer from 'comment block', haha! My daughter said something to me the other day about my 'epic' comments that I leave. I don't know if she was poking fun at me or not. But if I'm going to take the time to say something, I'm going to say it. Sheeeeeeeeesh. And if I get too wordy, the blogger can always delete me. I know a lot of bloggers comment to their commenters on their blogs but I forget to go back and check those most of the time. By the time I find a window of time to catch up on them, most have posted several times since my last visit and I'm working hard just to read their current stuff!
And here I write yet another blog entry about blog entries. Another post about trying to figure out why I come back on an almost daily basis to spill my guts or blather on about nothing. Why any of us do. For some it's an addiction. For others, a safe place to rant and rave and vent when they don't have the ability to do so in 'real life'. Some come for the social networking. Some don't come to write at all...they come to read and to lurk in the shadows. I don't know what the appeal of blogs is. I don't know why I comment regularly at some and never say a word at others. Why I return to some over and over again. And others I never visit again after stumbling upon them one time.
One thing I do know, tho.
I'd be lost without mine.
However boring and paltry it may be.