
I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. -- Maya Angelou
Monday, November 30, 2009
Word Twists....I LOVE stuff like this! Thanks, Lizzee...

Sunday, November 29, 2009

"A house once loved can never be lost. Never. Sold, yes. Moved out of. But not left behind. The house builds itself somehow into your tissues. It's floor plan, the color of it's walls, it's smell of fir and candied orange peel at Christmas, the summer light banding the kitchen floor, the chill of September that strokes its way up under your nightgown when you throw back the covers, etch themselves into the whorls of your brain. It belongs to you in a sense no title can confer. You have metabolized it. It lives in your bones."
-- Nancy Mairs from "Bone House" --
After reading my post yesterday Linda left this in a comment she wrote to me. I think it's just beautiful and wanted to share it with you, too.
Thank you, Linda!
Saturday, November 28, 2009
You can never go home again, but the truth is you can never leave home, so it's all right. - Maya Angelou
HomeOriginally written January 16, 2007
I've lived in many houses in my lifetime so far. One in the town I was born in, five in my hometown. Three in Vancouver, Washington, before I was married, and seven others with my Dear Hubby before finally settling here in the house we live in now, where we've been for close to 25 years. This, by far, has been the happiest home I've ever lived in. It's a Craftsman style bungalow built in 1912 and is in an old urban neighborhood that's a mixture of houses built anywhere from the late 1800s to a skinny little house down the street, 14 feet wide, that was built on a narrow vacant lot over the past few months. We're within walking distance of every school my children attended, and many of our neighbors have been here even longer than we have. We've watched each others' kids and even grandkids grow up. We're a close bunch, but never intrusive. Somehow, we've managed to co-exist very peacefully all of these years. A good thing, since most of our houses are so close to each other we can reach out a window and almost touch the house next to us.
What makes a home? Is it the creaky old fir wood floors that have been scuffed with countless feet over the past 94 years? The old lathe and plaster walls that are cracked and warped in places? The kitchen cabinets that needed an updating 20 years ago, and will get done when we get to them? The groanings and creakings of the old gas furnace in the basement every time it comes to life? Is it the envelope we found tucked in a wall, postdated in 1941, during a remodel job 23 years ago? No. It's the ghostly shouts and laughter drifting in thru the windows on a summer day, of endless games of Capture the Flag all the neighborhood children played together. It's finding a couple of little boys building a fort in the huge laurel that borders our back yard boundary and feeding them popsicles. It's digging in my flower beds and unearthing an old Fisher Price toy fireman buried under the dirt for who knows how many years. It's going searching back in a dark corner of the basement for something and coming across my daughter's wooden stove and sink set, unused for 25 years and covered in dust. It's looking for the cedar waxwings each early-Autumn, never knowing if they'll show up in the huge holly tree out back and hoping with all my heart they do...being thrilled beyond words when I spot their beautiful yellow wings flickering among the branches. It is cradling my little grandson in my arms for his first ride on my front porch glider. It is coming here, a young mother of 28 and, most probably, never leaving until the day I die. So, yes...I can relate to the pain in that older woman's eyes. I can see myself sorting thru the boxes and bins that store my life and not knowing which to toss, which to pass on to my children. Are they going to want my old paper dolls, my useless bits of jewelry from my childhood that mean nothing to them but transport me to certain moments, certain friends and people, who've passed thru my years here on earth, every time I hold them in my hands? Are they going to want this blog journal? Do they care that much about how I lived, what I thought, what I felt? What I dreamed? The woman that I truly am here within me?
I agree with Maya Angelou. We never do leave home. Every house we've ever lived in has helped form us into who we are, has followed along with us every step of the way. It's the ghostly whispers, the quiet moments, the tears and grief, the joy and love, the celebrations we celebrated in each and every one of them that make up our dwellingplace, the inner heart of us. Home is not walls and a roof, no. It's the structure that houses the very essence of who we are.
It IS a small world after all....

Friday, November 27, 2009

There's been a town showing up regularly on my Feedjit thingy the past few months: Fallbrook, California. I don't think that reader, whoever they may be, has ever commented. Which is perfectly fine. Most of my readers don't comment and never have. I spend my time writing to myself on here for the most part, or so it feels, haha! But the reason I'm mentioning Fallbrook is the fact I'd never heard of it and had no idea what part of the state it was in. This afternoon I was watching an episode of "Clean House" I'd taped on the DVR and the family it featured was from....GASP!...Fallbrook, California! It's somewhere down near San Diego! Who knows! Maybe the lady featured on there is my mystery reader!
Small world.
Broadening our horizons....

Thursday, November 26, 2009
A day well spent.....
Poor Dear Hubby! He ate too much. I think he and this cat are feeling the pain.Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Ahhhhhhh....computers! We gotta love 'em....
Well, I won't even begin to tell you what an interesting experience I had last nite, finding the header section of my blog again. How I came to having this ultra-cool -- in my opinion, anyway -- new header painting that fits right in with my blog title. Or so I think. Me, me, me...oh well, it's my blog and I'm the only one I'm trying to satisfy. In all honesty I don't even know how I got that image to work. I'd gone to pimp-my-profile to browse thru the 18,000 templates they have that are compatible to Blogger. I found this. I lost this. Then, magically, when I 'found' my header again and removed an image of my house I had on there...when I clicked 'Save'...there was this image. "Hey, works for me!!!" said I. Like Dear Hubby's always saying, "If it ain't broke, don't fix it." I don't care if I never 'redecorate' here again. Kind of like my house I live in. It's almost 100 years old and it looks it. But it's comfortable. It's home. My mom used to have the perfect phrase for stuff like this: "By guess and by gory!" Aye, matey!
I am sitting here in my super-baggy orange nite shirt with a pair of Dear Hubby's old black socks on my feet. I am tired. My regular routine was thrown all out of whack this week and I think my grandboys were suffering from the same malady. They need routine. They thrive on routine. Routine keeps our lives running smoothly here during the day. When they know what to expect and when to expect it, Life runs like clockwork. Take that away from them and from me and we have a mish-mash sense of chaos happening here. Naps get disrupted if they get taken at all. Things don't work right. Tempers flare. Voices get whiney. By the end of the day we're all drooping. Between the shortness of the week and Dear Hubby being on vacation...which means he's coming and going at odd hours all day...I was more than happy to wave goodbye and blow kisses out the door as the little guys headed for home this afternoon.
Yesterday Dear Hubby decided to go to the archery range he's a member of and the plan was for Dylan to go with him. Dylan's gone several times and loves it...it's in the woods and it's safe and he can run and run and run without worrying about traffic or any other danger. There's a horse and a donkey pastured across the gravel road and we always make sure Dylan has carrots and apples to take along to feed them. He walks thru the target course with Dear Hubby and they're usually gone for a few hours. He went willingly enough yesterday but without the usual bouncing-off-the-wall excitement he shows for it and followed Papa out the front door in a rather subdued manner. I watched out the window as Dear Hubby got him settled into his booster seat...then off they went. Cooper and I went for a walk while they were gone, doing some nearby errands. Not too long after we got home, along comes Dear Hubby and Dylan. They didn't really have the best time. "Not a bad time," Dear Hubby reported. "But not a good time." He said Dylan was homesick and wanted to get home to me and "PooPoo" -- his nickname for his little brother. That's never happened before. And then Dylan wanted to go for a walk. It was such an incredibly beautiful November day I couldn't say no so we packed up the double stroller and away we went...again. To the fire station. To the streets where Dylan's 'worker dude' friends have been working on the sewer lines since summer. They see us coming and we're such a common site now they call out, "Hey, little buddies!" to the boys and come over to talk and make a big deal out of the little guys which thrills Dylan to no end. As we walked on along a busy street Dylan suddenly bolted from me and I set off on a mad chase behind him with the stroller yelling, "Stop! Stop!" Luckily he came to a dead stop next to a store window instead of doing what I thought he might do, which was dash out into the crosswalk at the intersection. I grabbed hold of him, whirled him around, and gave him a swat on the rear. "Don't you EVER do that again! You scared Grandma half to death!" He rarely ever gets a swat but I felt that one was definitely deserved. Until he pointed at the window and I saw Christmas decorations sitting there. He'd spotted them and all he was doing was running to see them. But I didn't know that beforehand. He started to cry and wrapped his arms around me and wailed, "I'm having a BAD day, Mommy. A really, really bad day!" I squatted down to his level and just held him. Soothed him. Explained why he'd scared me so badly. Told him how much I loved him. Felt like a heel.
(A deep sigh goes here)
Sometimes being a little kid really stinks, doesn't it?
Sometimes being an adult stinks, too.Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Site Overhaul.....

EEEEEEeeeeeeeeeekkkk!
Painful ponderings.....

I stepped out of my comfort zone the other day and I was stung.
I think.
Anyway, I've certainly regretted reaching out the way I did.
It's been eating at me ever since I got the response.
Sometimes the written word is so fickle.
We can't see the expression on the other person's face
as they're writing.
And, when we don't really know them to begin with
and don't know their writing style or personality well
if at all,
it sure can cause a lot of head-scratching on my part
to try to figure them out.

Monday, November 23, 2009
Something cool to start out your day!
I don't have time to find the English version at the moment but I think this is a great idea!
Enjoy your day, every one!
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Loneliness is a place that I know well. It's the distance between us, and the space inside ourselves...
I'm almost 56 years old. You'd think at my age most people would have learned their life lessons by now, wouldn't you? Not so for me. I'm going to spill my guts once again so go grab a cup of coffee or cup of tea and settle in. I dunno how long-winded I'm going to get on this one.
Maybe it's from sitting on the couch with my daughter this morning and talking about friendships and self-images and others' perceptions of us. Maybe it comes from doing some more soul-searching lately. Whatever. But I've come to a painful realization of how I've limited my own life in years past. Me. My actions. My reservations about letting people in, letting them get to know me. My fears. My inadequacies, either real or imagined. Oh, this is so hard to admit to the world in general but especially to myself. It is so hard to peel back the layers of skin and see myself as I am, the time I've wasted. The opportunities missed.
You know, shy people are selfish people. Really. We get so wrapped up in worrying about ourselves we forget about how the other person might be feeling in the same situation. We see only our needs, our wants, our yearnings. We don't even begin to think about how the other guy might be feeling the same emotions, the same self-doubts we're feeling as well. Maybe even tenfold compared to ourselves. And we freeze. And we don't reach out. And we go away disappointed. Over. And. Over. And. Over. Again. In ourselves. Ourselves.
I just looked at the calendar on my computer, down where Time is listed. I had a huge shock when I realized it's November 21 and it was 33 years ago today I became a Christian. Especially since I'm writing about the topic I'm writing about at the moment. Because it has been relationships with people within my church that I have limited myself from more than anywhere else in my life. 33 years. Oh, that is painful. Because it's just been lately where things have begun to open up for me. Well, in the past few years, anyway. First it was my friendship with Karen. Then going out to dinner with a couple we've known for 31 years. Then getting on Facebook and...tentatively...putting forth the effort to say hello to those within my church circle, to 'Friend' some of them. Sending notes and cards and emails to people I know. Showing myself friendly. Because, by setting so many limitations on myself these past 33 years I have not shown myself to be very friendly. And it hasn't been because I'm not friendly. It's because I've been afraid to be friendly. Dear Hubby, thru the many different areas he's been involved in thru the years, has gotten to know a lot more people than me. And when people have said to him, "You know, Kris is so nice but she's so quiet!!" he's always amazed by that. He tells them, "You don't know my wife! There isn't a shy bone in her body!" Maybe that's been true in every other venue of my life...but definitely not at church.
What is so humiliating about confessing all this is by looking at it in retrospect I can see these issues have been because of me. Because of my attitude. My building the castle walls of defense around me and blaming everyone around me. Never myself.
Because...you see...by letting myself begin to reach out tentatively and letting that armor crack, by opening myself and allowing myself to be vulnerable...something that is very, very hard for me to do...I'm finding that people in my church are responding to me like everyone else does. That they're finding me nice. And likable. And thoughtful. And funny. And interesting. That I'm not that lump of dough who's been occupying the same pew space for the past 33 years. That I have a voice. That I'm really and truly a person.
Middle-of-the-night Meme
I actually had time earlier this evening to do some browsing and posting. I went to bed at 8 and came to at 11:30 WIDE awake. After tossing and turning a while I gave up and here I am. Again. Lucky you. I wanted to do some more writing just to release whatever it is that compels me to write in the first place. Like an endorphin rush of some sort? I dunno. Whatever it is, getting rid of it will help me go back to sleep. I speak from a lot of experience here.And so, I rely on my friend Betty in Paraguay once again for inspiration when I'm too tired to come up with anything of my own but feel the need to fill up my little posting box on here:
Friday, November 20, 2009
Give yourself the gift of life on your birthday...get a mammogram!

Many women are afraid of their first mammogram, but there is no need to
worry. By taking a few minutes each day for a week preceding the exam
and doing the following exercises, you will be totally prepared for the
test and best of all, you can do these simple exercises right in and
around your home.
EXERCISE ONE
Open your refrigerator door and insert one breast in door. Shut the door
as hard as possible and lean on the door for good measure.
Hold that position for five seconds. Repeat again in case the first time
wasn't effective enough.
EXERCISE TWO
Visit your garage at 3AM when the temperature of the cement floor is
just perfect. Take off all your clothes and lie comfortably on the floor
with one breast wedged under the rear tire of the car. Ask a friend to
slowly back the car up until your breast is sufficiently flattened and
chilled. Turn over and repeat with the other breast.
EXERCISE THREE
Freeze two metal bookends overnight. Strip to the waist. Invite a
stranger into the room. Press the bookends against one of your breasts.
Smash the bookends together as hard as you can. Set up an appointment
with the stranger to meet next year and do it again.
YOU ARE TOTALLY PREPARED!
AND, just a thought for all the women out there........
MENtal illness, MENstrual cramps, MENtal breakdown,
MENopause............
Ever notice how all of women's problems start with men?.........And
when we have real trouble it's HISterectomy!!!!
A Friend Is Like A Good Bra....
Hard to Find, Supportive, Comfortable
Always Lifts You Up, Never Lets You Down or Leaves You Hanging
And Is Always Close To Your Heart!!!
Pink Glove Dance for Breast Cancer Awareness
"Our employees put together this video to generate breast cancer awareness throughout our hospital system. We had a ton of fun putting this together and hope it inspires others to join in the cause."
The Staff of Providence St. Vincent Medical Center
Portland, Oregon
It's things like this that make me LOVE my city!
It is of course possible to dance a prayer. ~ Glade Byron Addams

Somewhere on the inside of this aging body is the soul of a dancer. I had a little friend named Annie when I was around four years old and her parents were Austrian immigrants. Her mother loved classical music and quite often when I'd go over to their house to play, she would have old 78s playing on the record player. My parents loved popular music of the day...Perry Como, Johnny Mathis, Nat King Cole, Rosemary Clooney, Patty Page...but it was during the many hours of play at Annie's house that my love of classical music was born. Bach, Strauss, Beethoven...one of my favorites was "Swan Lake". I can remember Annie and me dressing in flouncy bouffant underslips that belonged to her older sisters and she and I would dance around their living room, pretending we were prima ballerinas. That is where my love of dance was born, too.
I spent my childhood dancing around our living room on top of my Dad's feet every Saturday night when "The Lawrence Welk" show would come on. At the close of every show, Mr. Welk would go down into the audience and ask ladies to dance with him...that was my signal it was time for me and my Daddy to dance so I'd hop on top of Dad's feet and away we'd go. My Dad was a very elegant dancer and I would feel as if I was transported into the TV, becoming a part of the swirling screen of dancers. I outgrew that when I got too big to stand on top of his feet.
I never took formal dance lessons of any sort. We didn't have the money and I don't think I would've ever conformed to something like that, anyway. I was such a free spirit. As I entered in to my teens, my way of escape thru some very hard years was to close myself off into my bedroom, turn on my stereo, and dance for hours on end. I was light as a feather on my feet, as fluid as molten metal...no one ever came to investigate because no one ever heard me. I would light candles and put on a stack of albums and dance until they were done...then I'd put on another stack and start all over again. My mind would drift away into the music, my body would take over. I could leave my misery for those blessed hours. And then I got married. And I stopped dancing. Except...every now and then when I was alone in our house or apartment and a song would come on that would deeply move me...I'd find myself disappearing into dance again. But not often. I had no reason to escape anymore.
Circumstances came along that changed my freedom to dance. It was a time in my life where a lot of my creative forces left me because they weren't encouraged. That quiet little spirit of light in my soul died way, way down to just a little flicker in the core of me. But it smoldered quietly there, patiently waiting to find its way back out to the light. When I would do silly little-kid dances with my children to "Music Box Dancer" or "Jungle Book" or "Sesame Street", that little ember would struggle to come out. But I'd push it back down, again and again. And then came a day when I couldn't live that way anymore. There was too much inside...my music, my books, my writing, my poetry...especially my dance...that was crying out for release. And I let it out....and at first it was a tentative trickle, kind of feeling its way and wondering if it would be dammed up again. Then I decided I didn't care who might disapprove or condemn me for it, as long as I didn't feel it was coming from the One who leads me along. For me, dancing is a type of worship. I feel close to God when I am letting the very essence of me guide my feet, when I am lost to the outside world around me.
There is something beautiful about being home alone and turning on the stereo...of a quiet house with no one to watch this older woman letting the music flow thru her, flow out of her. There is something beautiful about the peace it brings into this older woman's heart. Because inside the heart of this older woman, the soul of a dancer still lives.
You CAN teach an old dog a new trick....
Jo Frost is my heroine. Because my years of parenthood are behind me and I know by the results of how my two children turned out that I did a very good job at it, thankyouverymuch -- and let's not forget Dear Hubby's contribution to it, too -- well, with that said I never thought about tuning in to "Supernanny". Then, a while back as I kind of channel-surfed out of boredom, I came across an episode of it and watched. I find Jo amazing. Truly. I have two very, very spirited grandsons and as I've stumbled and bumbled my way thru trying to find solutions to getting some of their behavior under control I hadn't found much to guide me. In all honesty, I hadn't even done any searches or reading about it...I have barely enough time thru my busy days to keep my head above water. But as I sat there watching "Supernanny" the cogs of my over-tired brain began to slowly grind to life and I thought to myself, "Why can't I use some of these techniquest on the grandboys?!" Considering they're with me about 90% of their waking hours, 90% of what they learn about human behavior and what's acceptable or not is coming from me.
I've initiated the Naughty Corner with House Rules listed. Cooper loves it...he'll even go sit on the little bench when he's not naughty. He'll 'pretend' pinch me or 'pretend' bite, then look at me expectantly and I'll say, "You need to go sit in the Naughty Corner, young man." He'll not his head, smile at me, and go sit himself down. A minute later he'll come back and kiss me, then pretend another offense and go back to sit down again. Then, back for a kiss. Another offense. And back to the bench again. This can go on until he runs out of 'naughty' things to do. But when he's truly naughty, it works wonders on him. Dylan, on the other hand, absolutely hates the Naughty Corner and, in all honesty, it doesn't work so well with him. But I do find if I get him off by himself for a minute, hunker down and have him make direct eye contact with me, and tell him why his behavior isn't acceptable he'll listen. We finish it with a big hug and then he's ok.
Another thing that is a great success is explaining to Dylan what behavior is expected of him when we're out in public. Again, down at his level and with eye contact. I ask him if he understands and he says "Yes" and away we go. A perfect example was at Walgreen's the other morning. He prefers to walk beside me now more than he likes riding in the stroller so he holds on to either side of the handlebar - whichever is away from traffic - and I've told him he needs to hold on to it in stores and the library, too. He is very, very good about that. In Walgreen's we'd gone down the aisle where the candy is to buy a couple packets of MnM's for him and Cooper and some yogurt raisins for me...I let him select the candy. In other stores, I let him pick out whatever items we need and place them in our basket -- that goes for selecting fruit or vegetables, too. He loves doing that. As we came up to the check out in Walgreen's a lovely lady who works there and is a grandma also and has 'known' my grandsons from the days of Dylan's infancy happened to be at the register. She's always thrilled to see the boys and is so sweet with them. I let Dylan swipe my Debit card and help punch in my PIN and she stood watching as he concentrated on what I was telling him to do. He behaved SO well and I was so proud of him. I smiled at her and said, "This is one of our good days!" She laughed because she's witnessed some of our bad days. She told Dylan, "You're so lucky, honey. You have such a sweet grandmother." I looked at her like she was out of her mind and said, "Oh no, not true." And she adamantly told me, "Yes, you are. Even on the bad days you handle them with so much love and patience and a lot of grace."
Well.
If that didn't make my day!
And at the library they were as quiet as mice and good as gold.
I think I'm on to something here.
Thank you, Jo.
If you're susceptible to ear worms DONT WATCH THIS VIDEO!
I am HOOKED on this...it's been going round 'n' round in my head all week.
But what a darling song it is....
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. -- Christopher Robin to Pooh
This was sent to me by my friend Mary:
Be sure to stop at the end of each picture before scrolling further.
More than likely you said, 'A bird in the bush,' and.......
If this IS what YOU said, then you failed to see that the word THE is repeated twice! Sorry, look again.
You may not see it at first but the white spaces spell 'optical' and the blue landscape spells 'illusion'. Look again! Can you see why this painting is called an optical illusion?
What do you see here? This one is quite tricky!
What do you see?
You probably read the word 'me' in brown, but when you look thru ME you will see YOU!Need to look again?
Alzheimer's Eye Test

Count every "f" in the following text:
FINISHED FILES ARE THE RESULT OF YEARS
OF SCIENTIFIC STUDY COMBINED WITH THE EXPERIENCE OF YEARS.
How many?
WRONG...there are 6. No joke. READ IT AGAIN! Really, go back and try to find the 6 "f''s" before you scroll down. The reasoning behind is further down.
The brain cannot process "OF". Incredible or what? Go back and look again. Anyone who counts the 6 "f''s" the first time is a genius. Three is normal, four is rare.
This illustration is not working on my blog so if the lady isn't moving, just skip it unless you want to know what the results are.More Brain Stuff from Cambridge University....
Monday, November 16, 2009
This is where your Great-Uncle Eric is from....

I am from unorganized sports games that lasted all day, from Coke in glass bottles and Rock ‘em Sock ‘em Robots.
I am from a big white house on the corner with a haunted attic, from a towering walnut tree and an oft-neglected yard.
I am from Nightshade and cherry trees.
I am from Easter Bunny visits until I was eighteen and tall, loud people, from “Victor!” and Harold and “Cousin Ginger”.
I am from mild insanity and stubbornness.
I am from a parsnip truck and a “Good Time Charlie”.
I am from a complete lack of religiousness. It was not discussed, encouraged, or discouraged. It was a non-issue. My first memory of anything to do with religion was when I watched “Ben Hur” on TV with my mom when I was in my early teens.
I am from a tiny, drab, wet town on the Harbor. One of the landing spots of my somewhat nomadic parents before they finally settled in Vancouver. I am from “Chef Boyardee” spaghetti with hot dogs cut up in it (Yuck!) and Cheerios. I am the baby, the accident, who was so much younger than the rest of the kids that I have very vague memories of them.
I am from an alcoholic uncle who drank himself to death, and from his namesake who followed in his footsteps and died from choking on his own vomit in a jail cell.
I am from two or three boxes of black and white pictures, from a small pouch of antique coins, from my father’s medals from “the War”, from old postcards of England and New England. Mementos of an extended family that I never knew.
I am from old Fords and Ramblers that stunk heavily of stale cigarette smoke.
I am from a tense atmosphere where even though you knew you were loved it was never really shown.
I am from freedom. Freedom to roam from sun-up until sun-down, and often longer than that. Freedom that comes from often too-trusting parents who understood that life’s experiences were best encountered without constant adult supervision.
I am from “Stay tuned to ABC for Batman: In living color!”
I am from a refrigerator packed so full of food it could feed half of starving Africa, from a mother who was convinced that everything in that refrigerator had spoiled. “Victor, smell this!”
I am from psychedelia, from drugs, from bell bottoms and platform shoes. I am from perms for both men and women.
I am from the game of the week (usually the Yankees).
I am from The Jackson Five, The Osmonds, Jody Foster. It feels like we all grew up together.
I am from Goofy learning to drive, from Bugs Bunny and all sorts of politically incorrect cartoons.
Friday, November 13, 2009
Life Lessons

I worked as a lunch lady in a middle school for several years and I met thousands of kids during my ‘illustrious’ career. Many of them touched my heart but none of them touched it like Andrew and Ashley. I think by the time I'm done telling you about them, they'll have touched your hearts, too.
Andrew was a student the first year I worked at this particular school. He had so many disabilities his aide didn't know where to begin to list them all. He was in a wheelchair. His teeth were all disfigured. He had cerebral palsy. He'd had countless surgeries and shunts installed in his brain. He was a feisty little red-haired Scotsman who couldn't speak but he wasn't shy about letting anyone know if he was unhappy! He wouldn't focus or make eye contact with anyone but that didn't stop me from loving him and talking to him every day as his aide would bring him into the cafeteria. I'd hunker down by his wheelchair and take hold of his hand and talk to him like he was any other kid in the school. One day his aide brought him into the kitchen for a snack and asked if we had any yogurt. I told her sure, we had strawberry and blueberry...which kind did she think Andrew might like? She shrugged and said, "Oh, I don't know. Strawberry, I guess." I looked over at Andrew and I said, "How about if I ask Andrew what he'd like?" She looked at me like I was crazy because he never talked and she said rather flippantly, rolling her eyes, "Sure, go ahead and ask him." I did. I went over and crouched down in front of him and I MADE him look at me by sheer will power. As our eyes connected I asked, "Andrew, we have strawberry and blueberry yogurt. What kind would you like, sweetheart?" It took him a few moments but he spoke out: "Bloooooooooooooberry!!" I patted him on the knee and said, "Blueberry it is, buster," and stood up. Well, my co-worker and the aide were standing there staring at me open-mouthed from shock. I just smiled and said, "Has anyone ever asked Andrew what HE wanted before?" and I went and got his yogurt.
She had been burned over the majority of her body as an infant when she was lying on the floor in front of the fireplace and a spark landed on her sleeper and set her on fire. Only the top of her head and her back up around the shoulder area hadn't been scarred. She hadn't been expected to live. But Ashley overcame the odds...what a fighter! Most kids would reel away in shock when they'd see her for the first time but that didn't stop her...she'd just march right up to anyone and talk their ear off.
She missed a lot of school in the 3 years I knew her. She had one surgery where some kind of synthetic hump was inserted under the skin on her back to stretch it out for more skin grafts. She looked like the Hunchback of Notre Dame. The medication she took made her drool and slur and stagger around. But any day she could be at school she'd make a bee line for the kitchen and holler out "Krissy!" and come flying into my arms for a big hug and a smooch. And then I’d go off into the cooler to cry a bit and regain my composure.
House Cleaning
I've been browsing thru my old blog archives...all 896 entries of it. I started out with the intention of finding an entry I told my blog friend Donna about but I got sidetracked as I stumbled across several poems I'd written and posted on it. I've been thinking of gleaning thru my old entries, re-posting/rewriting them as I see fit, then deleting it. Dear Hubby, when I told him what I was doing -- or thinking of doing -- strongly disagreed with me. He said it's my history and I should leave it as is. I dunno. But I digress. As usual. Those of you who've been reading my blog(s) since I began writing in April of 2005 -- and there are a few -- will probably recognize the ones that will follow here. These are the ones I found tonite and now I'm too tired to do any more brain straining and reliving in my blog past. I love my old blog. It's like visiting a friend you haven't seen in years. But it's also fraught with a lot of old memories, old history, that was purged and left behind when I began this one in December 2006. More poems will follow, I'm sure.
I think I said recently that I use poetry to express the things I can't express.
These things dwell in the center of my heart.
The Man You Are Now

Infant Stars -- For Dylan As I'm Awaiting Your Arrival

Infant Stars
Where have you come from,
I am here awaiting your
My Mother's Hands

My daily jolt has fizzled...

Thursday, November 12, 2009
Blame this on Betty....

Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Take a look at THIS!






( Roseburg, OR) for years. Paul Smith, the man with extraordinary talent was born in Philadelphia on September 21, 1921 with severe cerebral palsy. Not only had Paul beaten the odds of a life with spastic cerebral palsy, a disability that impeded his speech and mobility but also taught himself to become a master artist as well as a terrific chess player even after being devoid of a formal education as a child.
"When typing, Paul used his left hand to steady his right one. Since he couldn't press two keys at the same time, he almost always locked the shift key down and made his pictures using the symbols at the top of the number keys. In other words, his pictures were based on these characters ...... @ # $ % ^ & * ( ) _ .. Across seven decades, Paul created hundreds of pictures. He often gave the originals away. Sometimes, but not always, he kept or received a copy for his own records. As his mastery of the typewriter grew, he developed techniques to create shadings, colors, and textures that made his work resemble pencil or charcoal drawings.."
This great man passed away on June 25, 2007, but left behind a collection of his amazing artwork that will be an inspiration for many..
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Monday, November 9, 2009
Second Act

83. I have eaten rattlesnake

Absolutely beautiful












