Wednesday, June 30, 2010

You block your dream when you allow your fear to grow bigger than your faith. ~ Mary Manin Morrissey

I found out yesterday that the article I wrote for a religious magazine is now published and out there for the world to read. It is a strange feeling, to open a magazine and find something you've written printed right there. How vulnerable it makes you feel, especially if it's a personal piece about yourself. You know people are reading it, that it's being shipped all around the world. You've exposed the heart of you and you know people are reading it and forming their opinions of you from it. Hopefully not judging you, but I'm sure there are those out there who are doing that, too.

I am having a hard time making up my mind as to whether or not I want to print it here as well, on my blog. This is my online journal for my grandboys and I think it's important to include it for them because it is so vital as a part of my history. And yet...any one from anywhere from any walk of life and state of mind could read it here if they do the right kind of search. And that really scares me. Really scares me. Because I know the minds of those who delve in satanism. And I know how savvy people can be on here, finding out personal information. So I sit here and think and ponder and hem and haw. Procrastinating. Weighing the pros and cons.

I don't know.

Those of you who've read it who still stop by...what do you think?


Betty said...

I´ve read it and it was a great blessing to me. But I can understand your fear and honestly, I probably wouldn´t publish it on line. You can always have it printed for your grand boys separately and they will be able to read in time.
I really can´t give you a reason, why I feel this way. Let´s just say it´s intuition. But that just me. Let´s hear what the others think.

louisianaborn said...

I just started reading your blog. I am a private person but I like to write what I am thinking.I haven't started a blog because of the same misgivings you are having about publishing your article on your blog. I agree with your friend who commented... her intuition said no, don't post it on your blog. It seems that it would be akin to "casting one's pearls before swine", as Jesus cautioned, to let just anyone read those intimate thoughts that are so special to you and flippantly denigrated by callous people who might happen across your blog. Most people are not callous, I know, but there are some nut-cases who look for an opportunity to harm someone else in word or in deed. Blessings to you! I enjoy reading your blog.

Anita said...

Kris, it's so very hard to say. A part of me wants to say, be who you are, but I too understand your concerns for how evil works.
Let your heart and faith be your guide.