If there's one Life Lesson I've learned in my 54 years here on Earth, it's that nothing ever works out the way you planned it to. At least not 100% of the time.
My friend Lanie left a comment on my last entry saying I haven't been here much lately and hoped all is well. Well.......yes and no. Little Cooper hasn't arrived yet but will be here within the next week or so. My daughter-in-law had an ultrasound yesterday to determine whether he'll be taken by c-section, which I believe will most likely be done this coming week. Or, if they decide to induce, I believe she said that will be done on the 31st. We're still anxiously awaiting his arrival.
Remember not long ago when I'd announced a clean bill of health, that all my menopausal issues were behind me? Wrong. Wrong, wrong, wrong. I hemorrhaged. Again. Not as bad as the first time but badly enough where a hysterectomy isn't a will-I-won't-I option but it's been laid out there on the table and it looks like I'll be laid out on the table -- the operating table -- on March 31st. At least, that's the tentative date. I have to schedule an appointment to have all my blood work done with my regular doctor, then have a consult with my GYN doctor again on Thursday. If everything else is ok, then it's full steam ahead. After spending half a day at my GYN's office yesterday and going thru another miserable D & C, I am more than ready to go. I am tired of living this half-life the past couple of years, never knowing what's coming next. I am...just...plain...tired. So there go the plans to be there to help out the kids for a week right after Cooper arrives. But, as I told my son and d-i-l yesterday, this has come at the worst time and yet it's come at the best time. Because, when she goes back to work, I should be ready to take on the two babies. Hopefully with renewed energy and feeling...truly...like myself again.
So...that's where everything stands at the moment. On the cusp of change and new beginnings. Today is my darling Dylan's 2nd birthday. Tomorrow is his party. He's spending the day today with his mom and dad. Grandma's spending most of the day doing absolutely nothing.