Sunday, May 31, 2009

Home Safe


I walk across these old wooden floors,
these planks of
Scarred and battered
living.
Life has passed over them.
Many lives.
Other bare souls,
calloused and rough-skinned.
They've trod.
They've felt.
And my toes trace each groove,
the crossover from the silky weave
of the faded carpet
to the cool, rough boards,
the bits of old nail heads
bruising the soft places
so many times
I've lost count.
A sliver here,
A sliver there.
Stains and scratches.
Gouges.
No beauty there...not for the
artist's eye.
But for me
priceless.
Because my bare soul
has found comfort here.
Refuge.
When I walk these floors
I am home.
Safe.


Wednesday, May 20, 2009


Lately this is the way I picture myself living my life. Peering over the edge. Too busy to be a full participant in anything.
This past month I've been to the beach twice. Once planned. Once unplanned.
My son had surgery.
The grandboys had colds.
The grandboys had stomach viruses.
Diarhhea diapers.
Yuck.
Dear Hubby had a birthday.
I spent this past weekend in Pendleton. Not truly planned but not spur-of-the-moment, either. Just a couple of days' notice.
I finished two books.
We had to give up Chloe dog.
It's rained.
One day it was around 60 degrees. The next, in the 80's. That's Oregon for you.
I cut back runners from our neighbor's plum tree that have threatened to become full-fledged trees.
I took a truckload of junk to a Neighborhood Clean Up drop-off site.
I have walked. And walked. And walked.
And today?
I'll walk some more.

Friday, May 15, 2009

A small portion in a day of my life....


I asked myself

as I trudged along, pushing my 20-pound tandem stroller with my 52-pound grandson Dylan and 22-pound Cooper on board...loaded down with a pack of Pull-Up underwear, a pack of size 3 diapers, a big bunch of bananas, a gallon of apple juice, a half-gallon of Cranapple Grape juice, and a big box of Baby Wipe refills...

Am I crazy?!

Friday, May 1, 2009


Dylan

Middle of the Nite Musings....

We're having one of our infamous slumber party nites, Dear Hubby and me. The phone rang at 1 am, our son calling from Emergency at a local hospital. He's having what they think is a gall bladder attack and he called asking us to pray for him. I can definitely relate to that, having had my own gall bladder removed last September. Once the phone rings in the middle of the nite like that, sleep is pretty much over with. Even so, Dear Hubby and I were both very tired when we went to bed and we lay there for a while, hoping we'd be able to grab a couple more hours. No such luck. So we got up at 2, put on the coffee, and here we are now at 3:21, wide awake and eating breakfast, getting a jump start on our day. I have a feeling we're in for a long one. Our son just called...still waiting for his x-ray. The Emergency department is busy tonite. Is it a full moon out there? I worked in hospitals for years and full moons always seemed to bring on extra-busy nites. I don't know why. Full moons brought out the crazies, too. I'm not sure what my schedule will be like with the boys today, if I'll have them at all or end up having them today and overnite. We'll see what unfolds when the sun rises.

I don't care how old they get -- my son is 30 now -- but our kids are forever our kids. Their problems become more adult, is all. They still call on us when the going gets rough. We just can't take away all the aches and pains, the disappointments, and fix their worlds like we could when they were little, when a kiss on a boo-boo or a quick cuddle was all they needed to make it all better. Oh, that Life could remain that simple. But it doesn't.

So...here I sit. Restless and anxious. Awaiting news.